The sunbeams sparkled prettily in your eyes when words came out as whispers from my curled lips with the softness of velvety wine. “You may kiss me when the light is right”, I breathed and I blushed heavily. It may be winter air pinching me pink or it may be that I was fully drunk in the sweet liquid you were soaked in as I fell in love. You breathed out my name into the air scenting it delicately and from then on every touch became a divine secret. My giggles took a silver bell tone tinkling with every breeze. You brushed my hair as though they are like a silken whisper. You are still a familiar unknown to me; your texture, tastes and touches I can’t identify; so vivid, so familiar, so out of this earth; savoring your splendor in the glow of the stars cast over our skins; our colors have bled and blended to create a new hue. We twine around each other without breaking. I’m comfortable. You are the exotic tastes, smells and tingles. You are the colors, sounds and shadows. Your heartbeats are oceans whispering my name and I dream of seashells.  I still find myself aching for those hues, whispers and time hasn’t faded that memory or that familiarity.

At what point loneliness morphs into something that exists as something bearable ? I find myself missing you, missing your conversations, missing our moments; miss the curl of your tongue and the press of your teeth into my flesh; miss the way my soul sways to your smiles as your smiles wash over me affectionately; so fluid, so subtle and so mesmerizing. you should know that I can never bring myself to ecstasy the way you would; miss you, miss you , miss you a lot, a lot, lover ! please please come back ! melt with me one more time ! there’s always space for you in my heart, between my thighs, beneath my finger-nails, atop my tongue and inside my eyelids.  I breathe your name into the dark sky, pleading with the stars to carry my secrets and my tears to God.

I know none of this will translate into reality and I don’t mean for my words to be profound or planned or poetic. It’s just that I tucked you away in every molecule of my body for times I need to feel alive; it’s just that I’m captivated and alas, I’m nothing more than a shadow thirsting to kiss you once more; it’s just that I still can’t remember my dreams. It’s just that tonight, I will bundle up all of the pain that exists inside of me which tugs at my heart’s skin and knead it until I’ve created something beautiful.

 

#time is watching on and smiling as my tiny heart aches and aches and aches….

#i’m for Patriots (superbowl 51)

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