Salut ! Shanthi ft. Minnu, aka mama’s boy… he loves his mum ! Whenever I come home, I learnt to discard my bags or other whatnots at the door before I open it; my babies wait for me at the door when they hear my car pull into the garage. Once I enter, my boy Minnu, comes, happily wagging his tail and pulls himself up on his hind legs and jumps up into my arms (hence the reason I discard the bags) and hugs my neck and cuddles and coos and purrs to his heart’s content and to my heart’s content…. Sabbath morning after I gave them their breakfast, I waltzed with him till it was time for me to get ready to go to Church and I must say, that’s the best dance I ever did with any boy….. 🙂

A lady judge from Philly talked on the topic of walking in faith for Sabbath worship service. She talked about how God uses everyone and makes us meet the right person at the right time to do something for His Glory. After our Sabbath lunch, while waiting for the youth service to start, I was talking with this young man Jonathan, who moved to Philly from N. Dakota, and he told me how he became an Adventist two years ago and his story is the same as everyone of us who wasn’t born into an Adventist family. What impressed me most was he is a young man (27) and he is passionately in love with God and he decided he would do anything if it means to please God (and he quit his well-paying job because it interfered with Sabbath keeping and he’s now working for pittance). I want to note again that we keep Sabbath because we love God and not because it saves us. Christ alone saves us. We were talking about the fall of Lucifer and the Grace of Christ and how this also was extended to Lucifer till a point in time and that’s where we both differed and now we have a homework to research into when exactly the Grace of Christ was cut off for Lucifer. I should note here that I refuse to read interpretations of a non-adventist as most of the time they don’t have the Spirit of Christ.

“Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.” -Romans 12:12

Recently I was reading someone’s devotional about praying and about George Müeller (note to self: read about him as well). How George Müeller was moved by the Lord to open an orphanage but he wanted to do it without making his needs known to anyone else. This way, he could boast in knowing it was God alone who provided. So much faith ! This story transformed me and moved me and changed the way I pray. So much power in the notion. And I have seen that in my life as well.

I’ve become more and more dependent on Him recently than a couple of years ago. I’m learning to see obstacles as opportunities to flex my faith muscles. So many years have been wasted in panic and trying to control my life and moving too fast for God to act in His time. God is proving to me over and over again that He will take care of me the way He took care of Jacob, or Joseph or Daniel or the three Hebrew boys; He proved to me that I’m the apple of His eye and He has me in the palm of His hands; I’m convinced that if needed, He would stop earth’s rotation for me. But of course my human fears still linger, and I still have trust issues and I am not perfect in my walk, and I am not Abraham yet, and I still panic and trust God half-heartedly but I’m growing up and God is leading me to that point and it’s all about the walk with God which is important.

Letting go is so hard but God’s love is more powerful than my panic and fears.

I am learning that though seasons come and go, some leaving scars and some leaving me nursing wounds that won’t heal, God takes every circumstance and turns it into something marvelous and we just need patience and we just need hope. We just need to wait and ask God to help us to trust Him. Above all else, ask to give us Him.

“Truly my soul waiteth upon God: from Him cometh my salvation. He only is my rock and my salvation; He is my defence; I shall not be greatly moved.” Psalms 62:1- 2

I’m learning that no matter how many times I pray and no matter how many times I read the Bible in the hope of getting closer and closer to God, while these things are not a disadvantage, the secret to being close to God is to “be still” to perpetually draw nearer and nearer to Him.

I am learning that I don’t need to accomplish stuff to make sure God loves me (the works) or I don’t need to showcase my Christianity to Him or anyone else. God wants me to be still, so He can be louder on my behalf and in my silence.

“Be still, and know that I am God….” Psalms 46:10